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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Rape/Non-Con, Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Hannibal_(TV)
  Relationship:
      Will_Graham/Hannibal_Lecter, will_graham/will's_dad, Will_Graham_&
      Hannibal_Lecter
  Character:
      Hannibal_Lecter, Will_Graham, Will's_Dad, OCs
  Additional Tags:
      Underage_Rape/Non-con, Rape/Non-con_Elements, Child_Abuse, self-indulgent
      characterization_porn, also_regular_porn, Dubious_Consent, Group_Sex,
      kind_of, punks, Dead_Dove:_Do_Not_Eat
  Series:
      Part 2 of i_cannot_see_three_feet_in_front_of_me
  Stats:
      Published: 2016-03-18 Chapters: 1/? Words: 4962
****** here it is again, yet it stings like the first time ******
by cashtastrophe
Summary
     It happens finally on a Tuesday afternoon after a long, long string
     of bad days and worse evenings, that he reaches his breaking point.
      
     (Or the one where there's way too much backstory for bb!trash!Will
     and it has to go somewhere besides the ugly depths of my brain)
Notes
     You guys
      
     If it wasn’t evident from my choice in chapter title, i am kind of a
     scuzzy gross punk kid. i found out recently from some of my crusty
     friends that New Orleans has been a pretty big hub for traveling kids
     since the eighties so…
      
     This happened and I, uh...yeeeeeeah. Sorry.
     This is part of down_on_my_knees_but_not_to_pray—hit_so_hard_across
     the_skull_it_buckled_my_legs but it veered super off course for a
     long while and is fairly hannibal-free, so I'm posting an extended
     version of the chapter as a separate story for anyone curious about
     how bb!will made it to New Orleans.
     If there's any actual interest in this, there might be a couple more
     parts added eventually.
      
     If you’re familiar with that story, you know what sort of garbage to
     expect here. If not…
      
     Please please please see end notes for trigger warnings
See the end of the work for more notes
 
*
 
 
 
It happens finally on a Tuesday afternoon after a long, long string of bad days
and worse evenings, that he reaches his breaking point.
 
Will is strung tight and tense, has been for three exhausting weeks now. His
every nerve is braced for those moments—almost every night now, no break in
between to catch his breath, no time to   recover  —in which his father,
flushed with courage that smells an awful lot like Jack Daniels' will reach for
him. Will snatch him as he passes in the hallway, hold him by the wrist, by the
scruff of the neck as he ducks into the bathroom and, one memorable time, by
the back of the skull followed a brutal slam of his forehead into the
corrugated metal of the trailer wall.
 
Will almost misses the days when he was small enough to ball himself up into
tiny spaces, small enough to keep himself hidden in the corners of his father's
awareness. When he'd been caught it had hurt more then, of course—less surface
area to disperse the pain, he supposed, still-developing nervous system and a
narrow frame that wasn't suited to the intrusions of his father's blunt
fingers, never mind anything else.
 
That, at least, has eased with age and growth.
 
Small fuckin' favors.
 
 
 
*
 
 
 
You take it like a pro  , Dad had hissed only the week before as he'd shuddered
and come on the stripes crisscrossing Will's lower back. His panting bulk
collapses boneless against the wounds with little regard to the fact that they
were still throbbing and red, some of them weeping where his skin had split.
 
Will moaned in nothing but sheer animal terror, his mind firing frantic on all
cylinders, howling at him to run as far as his shaking legs would take him, run
until he collapsed,   anything   to escape from the weight of the creature on
his back. He could only squirm, of course, in absolute overwhelm because it
burned like a poker laid flat across his skin, ached like he'd run ten miles in
as many minutes, and his father was heavy enough that it was really difficult
to breathe.
 
 
A big hand wrapped around his cock, sure and stead as if he’d begged aloud for
it, coaxing out a bitten cry from the sick place in the pit of his belly where
there lurked the urge to sink his teeth into that hand, to bite 'til he drew
blood, to fight back.
 
He came, eventually. Of course he did. He always did. He hated himself for it.
 
The world kept right on spinning.
 
After, he lay on his belly, trying his best not to move and asked, “When you
said 'like a pro,' did you mean—should I get myself tested?"
 
His father gave him a black eye for the question and—after his requisite
cooldown period, after Will brought him beer after sweating beer, silent except
to ask   hey, want another?  —he handed Will the number of a nearby clinic.
 
The day of his appointment, before he left for work, Dad grabbed him by the
chin, wrenched his head up so Will was forced to look him in the eye, and said,
in a tone that brooked no argument, "Straight home afterwards, hear me? I know
how long it takes to walk back from the bus stop. If you're not home by the
time I call—“ he trailed off with a shrug and let go. "Don't be late."
 
Will had nodded, dazed. He’d left. Sat through the bus ride and the waiting
room and the bloodwork and the prodding and the uncomfortable questions with
his head empty and buzzing, feeling for all the world like his skull was
stuffed full of cotton. They asked if he was hurt anywhere. He shook his head.
He lied and lied and   lied   in a perfect even deadpan, unblinking, as he
wondered frantically if his jeans were dark enough to mask any potential
bleeding.
 
They believed him. They were overwhelmed with patients, so it wasn't as though
they had the time   not   to, and anyways, he was sixteen, not six. He was
capable of defending himself if he’d really wanted to. It had all gone quickly
enough from there until the nurse with the soft grey eyes gestured to his
bruised face and tried to press the number for a local shelter into his hand.
 
He had promptly started hyperventilating. He thought he might have stammered
something indecipherable about needing to be home to walk the dog, maybe, but
thank you, see you next time, you have a good day now and   fled  .
 
He didn’t remember any of the bus ride home.  He did, however, make it in the
door just in time for the phone to ring.
 
Three days later, it rang again. The test came back clean.
 
Will tried his best not to be disappointed.
 
 
 
*
 
 
 
 
Dad has been getting worse over the course of the past few months, in massive
increments that he's sort of starting to find alarming.
 
He’d have to be blind not to make the connection between the sudden shift in
temper and the toll his mother's cancer is taking on the man. On some level, he
figures, Dad must still love her. He rarely so much as raises his voice to her,
these days. He sees the way his father’s face ages ten years in the span of six
months as Momma withers away in her bed, drowning herself in cheap gin like
she’s not only accepted death, but has decided to race it to the finish line.
Some days, she’s so still and quiet Will thinks she might be practicing for the
coffin.
 
He tries to find it in himself to forgive his father. He does. He tries to
watch his step, to be careful, tries to placate him when possible and duck when
not, but the demands have become so increasingly irrational, so downright
paranoid  , he’s not sure how he's supposed to keep up.
 
It’s terrifying.
 
He thinks it could be the drinking, at least in part. Thinks, too, after a few
covert sessions spent holed up in the library after school, struggling to drag
his exhausted brain through academic explorations of   mania   and   paranoia
and   delusions  , that his father probably didn't ever come home from war all
the way.
 
It's...not comforting, grasping at these straws. His pelvis still aches dully,
enough that he has to kind of limp his way through gym class, and he still
throws up every lunch in the cramped hallway bathroom no one uses due to its
relative isolation from the cafeteria, so it doesn’t really make him feel any
better. He still blanks out during class, still forgets his homework, and his
test days and what day of the week it is and to change his shirt sometimes for
six days in a row. It doesn’t change anything, exactly.
 
It just, it soothes him a little to think of it as a disease.
 
A disease is no one's fault. A disease strikes randomly and without purpose
and—and it means that it isn't   him  . That he somehow isn't worthy only of
love at the buckle end of a belt, that there's a possibility that he is the
product of a wretched situation, but maybe not the cause.
 
It's the closest thing he's felt to hope in a long time. Maybe—maybe if his
father had treatment, maybe if there was some sort of support system in place,
maybe if he got the right medications, and he's ex-military, so surely there
are programs to help—
 
And then...
 
And   then  .
 
 
 
*
 
 
 
"He wasn't an educated man. I hope that's clear."
 
"Abundantly so."
 
"He thought—I was sixteen, right, and that's the age of consent in Louisiana,
so. So he wanted proof."
 
"Proof of—?”
 
“My—I don't know. Proof that I was into it? That I consented? He had this whole
thing about thinking I was always on the verge of telling the cops. I couldn't
join clubs after school because he was afraid I'd tell a teacher. I couldn't go
over to any friends' houses, in case their parents asked   questions  . He was
so convinced I’d turn him in, no matter what I said, so...I guess he wanted
something to hold against me if I did."
 
"Were you?"
 
"Jesus,   no  . No one gave a shit. This happened all over my town, Hannibal. I
mean, obviously not to   everyone  , but enough. Kid I was friends with in
grade school got drowned by his momma in the bathtub for cryin' too loud, you
know, and he was maybe eight? You were lucky to make it out alive. Didn't have
much time to worry about being intact."
 
"So he...videotaped you."
 
"Drugged me and taped...taped   us  . Yeah. Like I said, he wasn't educated. I
mean, I didn't really even think about it until I was in the Academy, how all
he'd really done was implicate himself.
 
"And. I was just, I was stoned out of my mind and scared to death and, and I
was crying and bleeding and I—I don't know, I snapped. Broke my mother's
bedroom door down and demanded that she do something to help me. My mother, who
was bedridden and   dying in front of me  , and all I could do was scream for
her to stop him. I was bigger than she was by that point."
 
"It is a parent's obligation to protect their young. She had ample opportunity
when you were much smaller, I think. You have no reason to blame yourself for
the fact that she chose not to take it.”
 
"It was the last thing I said to her. I stole her wallet and I walked out the
door and I just—“
 
"Kept going."
 
"Kept   going  .”
 
 
 
 
 
*
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
It's a girl that finds him eventually, shivering and wandering blank-eyed
through the brush towards the sound of flowing water like a selkie
instinctively trying to slip back into the sea. He's nearly made it to the
river at that point, and he hasn't managed to make up his mind whether he
intends to follow it or walk straight into it when, from behind him—
 
"Hey man, I've been following you for like, ten minutes now? So I'm gonna go
ahead and introduce myself before this gets any weirder. Hi," she says, and
stumbles down a tangle of roots to the concrete he stands on.
 
She’s a tiny little thing, a good head shorter than Will himself, positively
drowning in oversized layers of black and grey. Her jeans are torn and stitched
back together inexpertly, her hoodie faded the sort of grey that speaks of
exposure, not age. She stands probably an inch taller than she actually is in a
clunky pair of battered combat boots, the laces mismatched and tied together in
half a dozen places. A little tawny mutt without a leash trots after her.
Neither of them smell great, but she smiles wide when she reaches him and holds
out a black-nailed hand for him to shake. Obedient as a dog, automatic, he
does. ”I’m Shiloh."
 
He blinks at her muzzily, still trying to process the   following you   portion
of her greeting. When he speaks, it tastes dusty and sounds worse, like he's
been wandering dry-mouthed for hours.
 
Maybe he has.
 
"Shiloh. Like the county?"
 
She bares her teeth at him in a smile. "Shiloh like the   battle  ," she
corrects, tosses her dreads, and barks out a laugh at what must have been a
startled expression on his face. "What, your daddy didn't like military
history? I thought all southern guys had a thing for it."
 
Will shakes his head. "My daddy didn't like much of anything. Whiskey, maybe,"
he hears himself mutter and Shiloh-like-the-battle nods slow like she
understands.
 
(Later, much later, months later, when he strips off her heavy jacket and
unlaces her boots and sees the constellations of old cigarette burns littering
the brown skin under her t-shirt for the first time, he will realize that she
really, really does.)
 
"Well, this is a shit place to sleep anyways," she says after a moment, her
fingers curling absent in the honey-brown fur of the dog leaned against her
leg. It closes its eyes, panting happily in a patch of sunlight slotting though
the leaves and Will realizes they are somehow in a concrete underpass without
his noticing. She jerks a thumb at a bright splash of graffiti on the wall
behind her. "Used to be a pick up spot for hookers off the highway, I think.
Lot lizards smart enough to stay away from the lots, right? Cops are always up
our asses when we stop here, so I wouldn't hang around if I was you." She
blinks. "Unless you're a hooker, in which case—I‘m really sorry for being rude
and carry on, I guess."
 
Will snorts. "Do I   look   like a hooker?" He makes a jerky kind of gesture at
his dirty plaid shirt, jeans smeared with engine oil, heavy work boots crusted
in red dirt. He's willing to bet his black eye hasn't faded even to a soft
green yet, and there's some stripes from Dad's belt blistering across his back
miserably still in the relative cool of the spring air that she can't even see.
 
He smells awful. He looks worse. His pupils are blown, he’s probably sweating.
He   knows   he's shaking.
 
She tilts her head considering. "In the eyes, yeah, kinda," she says
eventually. "You also look like you're coming down from some pretty bad shit."
 
Will laughs. It feels like he's grinding glass between his teeth. Feels like
it's in his gums and in his soft palette and all down his throat, slicing him
open again every time he swallows. He wonders absently how much blood he could
ingest before it made him sick. "Dunno what," he slurs. "It was in a beer.
Can't really walk great though."
 
"Yeah, I can see that. You look pretty busted up. Whatcha got on you?"
 
"Uh." He fumbles at his pockets and produces his mother's slim wallet. "Like,
twenty bucks." He checks and counts it twice; his vision is stubbornly refusing
to stay still long enough to actually read the numbers. “Twenty-six," he
corrects.
 
"Not even a jacket? It's getting pretty cold at night." She's wearing this
massive black military affair herself, one that hangs on her razor frame like a
tent. She’s rolled up the sleeves enough to keep them out of her way, and
decorated it with what seem to be patterns in a rough, unprofessional
embroidery interspersed with sloppy white-out.
 
He blinks a few times and the patterns resolve themselves into letters. They're
probably bands, he realizes, though nothing he's ever heard of, aggressive
combinations of spiky letters in a clearly-handmade script.  She's wearing a
dog collar, pink leather with scuffed silver studs and a heart-shaped tag
reading simply fuck!, and he tries his best not to look at it. He tugs up the
collar of his own shirt as surreptitiously as possible to cover the wide band
of scar tissue. He's pretty sure she notices.
 
Her dog, by contrast, is wearing a faded red bandanna and a sleepy, pleased
expression. Will notes that the animal, though its paws are muddy and its fur
studded with burrs, seems to be in good health; its teeth are white, coat thick
and glossy, single remaining eye bright and aware.
 
"No jacket," he confirms when he realizes he's been staring at them for
probably longer than is socially acceptable. He hunches his shoulders. "Sorry."
 
She reaches out and whaps him lightly on the side of the head.
 
He flinches at the sharp movement and she clearly sees it, but she doesn't
pause. Doesn't hurt him, obviously, but doesn't stop herself from making
contact, not even when he sucks in a sharp little breath at the blissful
chemical swelling at bare skin touching his. He whimpers. He wants, and it’s
awful.
 
It’s followed immediately by a wave of roiling nausea, panic and   runrunrun
hammering in the dead center of his ribcage. She says, strict, as he shrinks
back from her, "Don't fuckin'   apologize  , come on. Hold your head up. You
can't pull that kicked-dog shit out here. You got somewhere to slink back to,
mutt?"
 
Red-faced, he shakes his head.
 
"Okay. So you've got twenty—sorry, twenty-  six   bucks and a clear case of the
crazies and hey, has anyone ever told you that you could model?" She reaches
out for him again and this time, runs a gentle hand down his jaw, slow enough
that he has time to pull away. He huffs out a noise of surprise, but doesn't
move. "Because you are   pretty  , my friend. And that'd be just great if you
actually were a hooker, but since that's not something you're considering...?"
Here she pauses and waits for his jerky agreement before she continues, "right,
so that face isn't gonna do you any favors on the tracks. Can you grow a beard?
You should   really   try to grow a beard. Maybe get some tattoos. You don't
even have a dog, you asshole."
 
“I—" he swallows once, hard, and bites back the apology. "Yeah, I, uh—I didn't
exactly plan this out."
 
"No shit." She shoves her hands into her pockets and rocks back on the heels of
her chunky black boots. “I’ve…look, I’ve got my crew holed up in a squat about
a mile down the creek," she says. She pronounces it   crick  . "It's safer than
being out here on your own, 'specially while you're sweating out whatever
you're on. We take turns on watch at night so no one can sneak up on us and
snatch our gear. That was my idea." She grins. "Got it from   Lord of the Rings
. You ever read that?"
 
He nods. "Yeah, in middle school," he distantly hears himself volunteering.
"And   The Hobbit  . I, uh, I liked them."
 
She raises both eyebrows and whistles a low note. "Well alright, Mutt, we could
use another slightly educated mind knockin’ around. My guys are—they’re
sweethearts, I love 'em, but they ain't always the brightest. You're not,
like—“ she grimaces. "It's a dick thing to ask, I know, but are you the kind of
crazy we're gonna have to keep watch   for  ?"
 
It's a fair question. She's come across a strange boy in the middle of nowhere,
out of his mind on something he can't name, clearly not even a week out from
some kind of encounter that left his eye blacked and his lip split, so it's
pretty reasonable for her to want to know if there's a chance he'll slit their
throats in their sleep. The thought of touching her beyond seeking that warm
spark of actual human contact, though, just the idea of raising a hand with the
intent to strike at this little slip of a thing with her bright eyes and all
her crooked-sharp animal teeth makes him abruptly queasy. He clenches his hands
into fists and tries to choke out something past the shredded lining of his
throat.
 
"Shit," she says, and pats him awkwardly on the shoulder. "Hey, hey, I didn't
mean nothing by it. Don't start crying on me now."
 
"Smart," he husks out, and drops his gaze to the mat of pine needles littering
the concrete beneath the soles of his boots. "You're right to ask. I've
never—I’ve never hurt anyone. Else."
 
"Man,   I've   hurt someone else. Many someones," she laughs. "Long as you have
the ability to draw a clear line between   friend   and   enemy  , we're
solid." She tilts her head again, and her short little dreadlocks flop up in a
sort of messy mohawk, the metal beads scattered throughout clicking together
gently. She reminds him a little of a bird. ”Sometimes you gotta fight," she
offers. "Sometimes, you got no other options." She ruffles the dog's ears and
Will notices for the first time the thick bands of scarring striping the dog's
muzzle and neck.
 
(She's a small pit mix, he finds out later, a bait dog in her previous life,
and Will wonders for awhile why a girl as tiny as Shiloh wouldn't have a big
bruiser of an animal instead. It would make more sense, he's sure, up until he
sees her hoist the animal into her rucksack to hop a train marked   NBD   for
Northbound   in glaring green on three successive cars.)
 
Will nods without really consciously choosing to. "Y-yeah. I guess so. I, uh—I
won’t hurt you, though. Promise."
 
She snorts. "Ain't   me   I'm worried about. What are you, a hundred twenty
pounds soaking wet? I got some kids in my crew who aren't so full-sized yet is
all." She turns and crooks a hand back at him, waves for him to follow her.
"But hey, you seem like an alright dude. Come on. Dinner should be done by
now."
 
He tucks his wallet back into his pocket and his hands into the hollows of his
armpits. She doesn’t look back to see if he’s still just standing there.
 
Hunched against the cold wind blowing off the water, he follows her.
 
 
 
*
 
 
“Dinner” turns out to be a couple of half-eaten pizzas liberated from a nearby
dumpster, but it’s warmed over a camp stove and, true to Shiloh’s word, her
crew are actually sweethearts.
 
They don’t look it. They turn out to be three skinny kids dressed in the same
various shades of faded, unwashed black as her. The youngest, a tornado of a
loudmouth maybe six years Will's junior with a buzzed head that, Shiloh
explains, rubbing fondly at the fuzz covering the kid's scalp, was the result
of one too many bug infestations. "He goes by Flea and he's a total spaz," she
says, ducking out of the way of the playful swipe Flea takes at her. "But you
put this kid in front of a set of pickle drums and   man  . He can make the
most uptight white bitch dance, lemme tell you. Total idiot savant, so try not
to kill him if you can. We need him come busking season."
 
Flea sticks out his tongue, but grins sunnily up at her anyways.
 
The guy with the guitar and the sloppy homemade tattoos all down his arms is
Mack, and he doesn't seem to have much to say about there being a new addition
to their crew. He does offer Will a couple pulls from a joint, though, and asks
if he thinks he could learn bass.
 
"Not, like,   well  ," he clarifies earnestly. "Just enough to keep up with a
beat."  He takes a long draw from the joint and passes it over, lets blue smoke
leak between his teeth. Will inhales deeply. It burns.
 
"Yeah," he murmurs. "Yeah, I probably could. What happened to your last
bassist?"
 
Mack's grin slips a little.
 
When Will tries to pass the joint back, he waves his hand. "Nah, man, keep it.
Consider it a welcome-home present."
 
Jacob-call-me-Jake is tall and built like an absolute tank, with what looks
like a porcupine quill shoved sideways through his septum. He towers over Will
without really meaning to, but he's got an easy smile and a molasses drawl.
When he corners Will against the crumbling brick not two hours after meeting
him, his hands and his mouth are so gentle Will could   scream  .
 
He tastes like nothing familiar, like tobacco and cheap weed and the shitty
moonshine Mack's been passing around in a water bottle since they sat down.
They're holding what could loosely be considered a band practice before it
devolves into a drunken argument about a comic book Will's never read and he
kind of tunes out.
 
Will hasn't magically learned how to play bass in half a day, nor do they
technically   have   a bass, so he gets to sit off to the side with Jake
passing the liquor between them. Jake doesn’t play anything—“I'm the roadie, I
get to lug all their shit around because look at Mack, actually just look at
him, he is so small it's   embarrassing  .”—and he lets maybe half a slurring
song pass before he's crawling into Will's lap, tipping the plastic bottle of
clear liquor into his mouth.
 
"  Hey  ," Will thinks he says but the burn in his throat is good. The burn in
his belly is even better.
 
"Hey yourself," Jake mumbles. "It's been a while since Shiloh brought home
someone new."
 
Will huffs out a laugh. "What, are you not allowed to, to breed outside the
pack? Shiloh has to approve?"
 
Jake doesn't dignify that with an actual answer. He does, however, shove one
enormous hand into Will's jeans and begin (with a hugely satisfied smile) to
jack him off so goddamn slow and sweet and tight it's actually   unfair  . 
Three strokes in, he pauses. “This okay?”
 
It takes him a few moments to realize why he’d stopped in the first place, why
he seemed to be waiting for the all-clear to continue. When he does, he keens
low in his throat and tries desperate to muffle it in the palm of his hand,
because there is still a band practice happening not thirty feet away and also
one of them is, like,   ten.
 
Jake shakes his head. He tugs Will’s wrist away from his mouth, pinning it to
the brick above his head and when Will’s eyes drop to half-mast at that, he
adds Will’s other wrist to the hold, chuckling fondly. "Nah, c'mon, Mutt. Let
'em hear you. Part of the pack now, yeah?"
 
It takes another few long shots from the plastic bottle and smoking his welcome
joint down to a smoldering roach, but Mack's still noodling away at a tricky
solo when Jake tugs Will's jeans down and swallows his half-hard cock. He does
it eagerly, with embarrassing focus, a loudly appreciate noise and a total
disregard for the other people in the room.
 
Will whimpers. His hips buck up helpless into the warm slick of it, into the
broad hands wrapped carefully around his thighs. If this has ever been done to
him before, he can't remember it, but he thinks he sort of understands now why
it makes his father claw at him the way he does—and surely this must be
better  , Jake's slow enthusiasm, the way he rubs gentle circles into the
hollows of Will's hip with his free hand.
 
Will fought, usually. Spit and scratched and made such a fuss that he forced
his father to hold his head still, braced in the vise grip of broad fingers on
his jaw.  They’d press in cruelly, biting so hard into his skin that he'd have
to get up a full twenty minutes early and steal his mother's foundation the
next morning before school. He can’t imagine the occasional rebellious scraping
of teeth was much fun either.
 
Nothing like that happens here. Jake looks up at him with these sweet, wide
brown eyes and he smiles like the goddamn sunrise when he pulls off Will gently
with a soft pop to throw back another shot.
 
“Please, fuck,   please,  ” he pants without any concrete idea what he's asking
for. Over Jake's head, Mack locks eyes with him. He winks.
 
Jake wipes his mouth, sets the bottle down and murmurs something ridiculous to
him, something along the lines of   are you good, yeah, you gotta tell me if
you need me to slow down, gotta tell me if you wanna stop,  but Will just nods
without really processing it and Jake grins, crooked. He shifts back between
Will’s splayed legs with a low, “Okay, okay,   needy,”  and gets back to work.
 
This time, he bypasses the thick line of Will’s cock entirely. This time, he
gently nudges Will’s legs further apart to suck gently at his balls. This time,
instead of the blooming warmth in Will’s stomach at the slide of a tongue
against him, his stomach plummets with a cold, dead weight like he’s just been
ducked into an ice bath.
 
Will slams his eyes shut with a choked sound that should probably have been
embarrassing.   No  , he tries to stammer out as Jake peels his jeans down his
thighs, past his knees, off entirely, dropping onto the bare concrete floor,
no, hey, not there,  he tries to say, but his jaw may as well be wired shut.
 
He shakes and he shakes and he shakes and he only looks up when Shiloh pushes
the bottle of moonshine into his grasping hands.
 
Will slugs it down gratefully. Shiloh kicks at Jake's thigh, and nods when he
gives her a thumbs-up in reply. “Dude, relax" she says to Will and pushes the
bottle at him again. "You're still rolling, right? So just...go with it. Let
him make this feel a little better. Let us take care of you for a bit. That's
the whole goddamn   point  ." She crouches down next to him and she doesn't
touch him anywhere sexual, doesn't touch Jake at all, just cards her fingers
through Will's tangled hair, tips another shot to his gasping mouth and
murmurs, "Let   go  , kid."
 
He pushes into her touch and comes down Jake's willing throat barely half a
heartbeat later with a wrecked little groan. He   tries   to say something,
tries   to protest as Jake swallows him down, pulls off and lets that clever
tongue trail down the tight pull of skin just behind his balls.
 
Please don't  , he tries to choke as the tongue swipes against him and his hips
spasm uselessly into empty air.
 
"Hey," Jake says, lifting his head. His mouth is swollen, slicked red and wet,
brows knotted together. “You’re—yo, man, you're bleeding."
 
And that's the last thing Will really remembers for a while.
 
 
 
 
End Notes
     runaways, traveling kids, kids making poor decisions, unsafe sex,
     underage drinking, underage drug use, Will's dad bad touches him a
     bunch and Will is Done.
     If you don't know what gutter punks/train kids/traveling kids/
     crustpunks are, this is a p dece overview.
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